Then what?

After finding out my wife was cheating, and her realizing that i got a huge rush from it, where do we go next.  The day after was the strangest.  Would she respect me less? Would it be seldom talked about?

It didn’t take long to find out the answer. She came home that evening and while we were laying in bed she said straddled me and began kissing me all over.  She used a few of my ties and secured my hands and feet to the corners of the bed.  She told me to be quiet and went and grabbed her phone.  She began taking naughty pictures of herself and started sending them to the guy she cheated on me with.  

After a few minutes the phone rang.  It was him.  She told me if i was quiet that she would make it worth my while.  She answered and put it on speaker. They proceeded to have phone sex in front of me.  It was so erotic hearing his voice for the first time and hearing him describe having sex with her.  

She was laying next to me.  Side by side.  As she got more turned on she began fingering herself and simultaneously stroking my already hard cock.  She made careful effort to stop stroking me if she could tell i was getting close.  I came close nunerous times. I lost count to be honest.  And when they had enough,  and it was clear that both of them had cum.  She let go of my cock and fell asleep. Leaving me in a horrible state of arousal and still tired and unable to take care of myself.  

It was a very strange feeling.  And was the first time she intentionally left me unsatisfied but at the same time the opposite. 

Was this really my life? Is it possible that this is happening.  It was a blur, yet my heart was still beating out of my chest.  

Admittance

The longest 15 minutes of my life waiting for her. After confronting her over the phone i was in a state of fear, and anxiety waiting for her to get home. Maybe she was just talking to a guy. I cant imagine her actually doing anything else. Afterall this was my wife, princess and mother of my children. 

I was noticibly shaken when she came in. I was upstairs in our room pacing when she came in and sat down on our bed. I tried to let her tell me what happened but she was dragging her feet. I had enough and asked the question i didnt want to ask. 

“Did you cheat on me?” She started sobbing. And without saying a word shook her head yes. I went numb. Almost as if i was relieved. At least i knew. In all reality i was in shock. At that moment i was incapable of feeling emotion. If you have ever been here, its a strange feeling that is hard to explain. 

As she sat there sobbing uncontrollably I started thinking about how much i have always hated to see her hurting. I wasnt even thinking about anger or being mad at that moment. The only thought i had was that this was my wife and i dont want to do anything i regret. I sat next to her and gave her a big hug. As she leaned into me we lost balance and fell backwards. This is where it all changed. 

Little did i even notice but i had the hardest erection of my life. It wasnt until her hand fell onto my lap and grazed my erection that I even realized. As soon as she felt it, she instantly stopped sobbing and the next thing i knew she gassped and was instantly turned on. We were kissing passionately and she was pulling off my clothes. Its a blur but the next thing i remember i was on my back and she had me inside of her. 

She admitted to fucking another man and now she was riding me hard and telling me all about it. Saying things like “i cant believe you are hard knowing i was fucking someone else” and “you want me to tell you how naughty i was?” 

I could not believe the passion in her. It was like a flood gate was open. I guess i told her i wanted to know everything. 

With my cheating wife on top of me i felt so submissive. Like i had been humiliated and hearing her tell me about it brought an incredible adrenaline rush so she continued:

“Daddy, after work we were all around the campfire drinking and having a good time. He was nice to me. Pulled me close and kissed me. I dont know why but it felt good. We went back to his camper and i found myself on my knees giving him head. He had such a beautiful thick cock. He tasted so good and i knew it was wrong but i wanted to fuck him. He bent me over his bed and pulled my pants down around my ankles and he fucked me daddy. He felt so good in me. His hands on my hips. He fucked me so hard. The sounds he made as he fucked me… oh god i think i am going to cum…..” 

She looked beautiful cumming on my cock. And before long she was telling me more. 

“I thought of you laying at home and how wrong it was. I felt guilty but i have never been more turned on. Knowing i was cheating made it so much more thrilling. Please tell me you are not mad!”

All i could utter is do you still love me? 

“Yes daddy, i do. With all of my heart. I just need to be a slut. I need more cock. I need more cum”

At this point i was getting close to cumming myself. I said “more cum? Where did he cum?”

She responded with “oh fuck daddy… he… he… he shot a huge load inside of me. He wasnt wearing a condom”

I had probably the biggest orgasm of my life. My heart was pounding through my chest. Hearing her talk so dirty and telling me how much of a slut she was was so hot. 

As she rolled off of me… she told me something i will never forget. “Oh daddy, i think you like me being a naughty wife. I think you are going to want me to fuck him again. Seeing you get this hot makes me want to do it again”

She said she loved me and without even hesitating i rolled her onto her back and fucked her hard again. I couldnt believe it but reclaiming my wife just made me do something that had never happened before. I came 2 times without needing a recovery period. 

We laid together and got dressed. She went back to work and i was left at home to wonder wtf just happened. 

The evidence

Late nights, early mornings.  I knew what time she would get off work.  I would even message her before going to bed.  But no answer.  The response was that her phone was dead.  Or it was on the charger and she was hanging with her friend.  I had nothing for proof.  

One evening we fought at 2 am when she returned. About why i didn’t hear anything from her.  She gave me the same excuse that she didn’t see the messages because she didn’t have her phone with her.  The Verizon site was down and i couldn’t check to see if this was the case.  

The next morning she went to work.  I got onto the Verizon site and looked up our account.  During the times that she claimed she didn’t have her phone I noticed that she was exchanging messages with a number i didn’t recognize.  So I put it into facebook and a man’s account came up.  I was numb.  I finally caught her in a lie.  And i called her at work to ask who he was. I told her to rush home or i was coming in….. 

Leading up to the day it all changed

When you love someone, you put your heart on the line. You give the that person the key to your heart. You become vulnerable but it brings happiness.

I knew for a while something was wrong. It felt as if we were distant. That closeness wasn’t there. Something was bothering the wife I called my “princess”. Not only were we not having sex but she was irritable and having a hard time getting close to me. Whatever i did i couldn’t make her happy and it killed me.

This went on for a couple months.  She always worked late and I was at home with the kids.  If it wasn’t for raising my kids i might have lost it.  I would try to have sex with her but she was always exhausted.

I started having dreams that she had been sleeping with someone else.  I confided in her about this and it seemed to bother her. For whatever reason though we would have mind blowing sex following my admissions of my dreams.

I started thinking of it more. I kept having crazy dreams and my wife kept working late hours. She would stay after work and come home super early. She justified her partying because she said it didnt hurt since i was already in bed and she wasnt missing out on being a mom.

I dealt with it, i hated going to sleep alone but she most always was there when i woke up in the morning. Hell, i remember how hard it was for me to fall asleep without her there, but i was getting used to it.

It wasnt until almost 6 months later that i began to actually see signs that there might be someone else…..
Too be continued

How did i come to be?

This has been a long journey.  From happily married to being cheated on to becoming a full fledged cuckold (who loved it) to being divorced and lonely.  I will share my story and possibly connect with those that wonder what having a hotwife is all about.  I will try to do it in a clean and respectful way.

Let me first start by saying that I never had a cuckolding fetish,  and even today it isn’t a fetish.  It’s not just something to get off on.  I found the deepest meaning of love and loyalty in it all ironically. When i was being cuckolded i truly was the happiest i have ever been in my life.  I long for the day i can have a connecting with a woman like i had with my exwife.  FB_IMG_1497867528733.jpg